I wish...

that I was a genuinely happy and positive person..

Beyond Tired and Stressed

This has been such a bad and long week.

Here's the gist of it...

My mom was hospitalized for three days... so I basically was stressed out of my mind. I was so scared.
I had four exams... three of them were on the same day. The other one occured while my mom was still in the hospital.
I still have two more exams to go... and I'm just so darn exhausted.

I just want to be able to sleep and not feel guilty. I want to just have a little bit of breathing room... but I don't even know. Not until this Tuesday afternoon.

I'm so bummed out. I'm not very happy right now. I just feel stress... stress... and more stress.
I can't wait for the weekend... this will be the first time in a long time when I can actually feel like I have free time.

I know I signed up for this... I know that dental school is hard and I am very glad that I'm here. I'm just really tired.

I Really Should Blog More

Today was a really long day. It was very eventful and it left me feeling a little bit accomplished in at least one aspect of dental school life. Here goes... I went to a CPR certification. My card expired some time last year and it's awesome that the school scheduled for us to get certified. This way, I don't have to go to some random location or bus to far away destinations just to get certified. Hooray for that.

On a side note, life is bitter sweet sometimes. For those who know me personally, it is a very very very obvious thing that I love anime and manga A LOT. I even went to my first anime convention last summer... and I really liked it. Anyway, I found out that Pittsburgh hosts an anime convention. Of course I was extremely excited especially after I discovered that the location was only 30 minutes away via bus. But then reality hit me like a giant mecha robot (you like that? just imagine Transformers or Escaflowne), I have an exam the Monday after the anime convention weekend. And knowing me, I will feel to guilty to endulge my anime-ness when an exam is looming around the corner. ::sigh:: Maybe some other time? Or maybe I'll study extra early so I can go...

Another random note, being a dental student has some simple perks... such as an awesome discount to dental products from major retailers. It's nice to know that I can buy a Sonicare power toothbrush and an Oral-B power toothbrush for a third of the price. Some people will be getting dental products for presents... and they will like it... they will all like it. :-D

Aaaaagh Finals

I'm soooo tired. One more final and the hardest one yet of all of them. So stressed. So feeling blah. I don't know what to do. I'm just reading over stuff now. :(

Giving Back

I would tell everyone that I've been busy with schoolwork... but that's not really anything new. Instead, I'll just tell everyone about the community service things that I'm involved with.

Right now, the Pedo Club (I'm secretary... in case you didn't know) is holding a Toy Drive. And, I'm basiclly asking my classmates to sponsor a child by purchasing a toy for them and leaving it unwrapped at the Pedo clinic. I also helped out w/ the Christmas tree sale at the School for Blind Children. We received 300 trees yesterday and we hauled them out, removed the string binding their branches, trimmed their stems, measured their height, tagged their specs, and cleaned up. It was a fun time and it was great hanging w/ the second years... but I'm not going to lie, it was freezing. I was suited up in my winter gear.

Since it is super cold in Pittsburgh, I am now considering making an investment on a really warm jacket. All the wam outerwear I have are coats and I need something lighter and shorter than that. It's amazing how expensive jackets are. Northface is ridiculous... some of the jackets are like $500. I'm looking at Columbia right now but they don't have prices listed on their website. The other one that I'm looking into is Lands' End... my grandma wants to give me her Lands' End jacket... but I really don't wanna wear bright orange around school. And, I found a moderately priced $140 jacket that I might buy myself for Christmas.

Wow. I can't believe that Christmas is coming up so fast. It's going to be exciting, relaxing, and hopefully super fun. But before I get there, I need to suffer through finals. There's just no easy way out. Ah, the life of a dental student... with so much stress, you have no room for other emotion.

Cold...

Yes, it's 4AM. And yes, I've been studying. But not to worry, I actually slept earlier. This is probably a bad idea, but I'm studying on my bed... well, I'm taking a side break now but you get the picture. You see, the heat comes on and off... and well, it's off right now and I'm freezing so I have to be under the blanket. I guess I could bring my fleece blanket to the desk, but that will be odd. So yeah, I'm here... on my bed... chugging away.

I don't think I'll fall asleep though... I've been up since like 1:15 AM... and I did drink some Sugar free Rockstar energy drink. I need to buy some of those 5 hour energy drinks... those are good and don't have much caffeine.

Well here's what I figure, I will stay up now and get as much done now... and hopefully, I can get some sleep tonight which is much more important for test preparation anyway... and on Monday, I'll come home after I take my edentulous impressions of my typodont, pour it up, etc... and I can sleep for as much as I want. Sounds good. :)

I can't wait to be able to get a good 8 hours of sleep.

Quickie Blog

Life is very intense right now. I'm taking a 5 minute break in between me getting ready for school to update my blog. Let's put it this way 5 exams in 7 days. Three of them are back to back. I don't even know why dental schools try to kill us in this way... but they do. :(

I can't wait until after next Monday, then I can breathe for like... 3 days before I have to start majorly studying again for the exam the following Monday. Life is crazy. I can't wait to have a break because I feel so stressed out. I slept for like 5 hrs the day before (2 hrs... woke up for a practice test... then 3 hrs)... and last night, 4 hrs of sleep... today, maybe even less. I don't even know.

I hope hope hope and pray pray pray that everything will turn out just fine.